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The Ohio River they say
is contaminated.

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I don’t think it’s very healthy.

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I really don’t.

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You used to see barges
all the time on the river.

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You don’t see as many.

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Not near as many.

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I like it down here.
I love it down here.

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I still love it.

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But,

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since I’ve been in Pomeroy,

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this place has really went down.

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People just losing their jobs and

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had no way of making
no money down here.

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There’s nothing down here.

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Nothing down here for kids.

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They had a skating rink

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where my kids used to go.
They closed it down.

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Our family all live
close by each other

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and we do work together
to raise the kids.

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Yeah, we do.

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I just hope my grandkids

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have a better future than what I had.

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Okay.

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This is an obsidian rock.

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And the, this,

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this is a pumice rock.

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Abasa, is like,
it's also a volcanic rock.

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It's more like a
scratchy type of rock.

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This one is like a glass,

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obsidian is like a glass type.

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I would be obsidian

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because it's really hard

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and it's not easy to change.

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I would also be obsidian
because it's like,

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it's reflective, it's like shiny

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and it's not really that
easy for you to like,

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just break.

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- See that deer right there.

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- See that deer right there.
- Hi, deer!

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There's three of 'em down the road.

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Hi Miss Deer. What doin’?

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Grandma!

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He can go like a cork,

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pop, pop, pop, pop.

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He can go like a horse feet,

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clop, clop, clop, clop.

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Wanna see somethin’ cool?

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Are we ready?

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Why you got your pajamas on?

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My mom told me I had to
get dressed, I was like,

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I'm not changin’.

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My husband, John, and I had three kids

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and then Euva, my oldest daughter,

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she had Destiny Dawn,
when she was a lot younger.

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Then she had Curtis.

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Then she had Dominic.

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And then Shyla.

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Gigi-gang!

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Gigi-gang! Gigi-gang!

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Curtis is my buddy.
He’s my little buddy.

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I love ‘em all the same, but

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they’re just different.

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Curtis is smart.

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I know he is.

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He’s a good boy, he just,

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he’s had a rough life.

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He’s been in and out of foster care

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and that tears me up. I hate it.

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[background chatter]

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Mommy.

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I can touch it on my
tippy toes probably.

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Let go of it. Let go.

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On my tippy toes,

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I just touched that.

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I saw my dad and my mom use heroin

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whenever I was growing up.

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My dad actually,

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he may not have been shooting up, but

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he had the needle in his hand.

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But I didn't see nothin’ on his arms.

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And whenever I used to see that

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I'd always run and hide under my bed.

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Just you could see stuff
layin’ around all the time.

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Especially upstairs,

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be a bottle of pills,
just sittin’ there,

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ands I used to see it a lot.

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Yeah.

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Mommy is a recovering drug addict.

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There's a lot of things that
happened in my childhood

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and stuff just that,

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you know, just

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brought up where I
wanted to feel numb.

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Mom, could you help me?

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She put two bunnies in it. Did you?

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Yeah, they don’t know what
this stuff smells like.

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There's always been
drugs in this family.

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All of our parents did it with us.

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You know, wherever we went
we could've got it.

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Don't matter.

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And then you're thinkin’
as a parent, like, okay,

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now he's on it.
Now I can get more of it

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'cause my son's doing it,
my daughter's doing it

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and you're not really worried about it.
You want them to get it.

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They grow up in that life they're
gonna be a drug addict.

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They're gonna be a
drug dealer or something.

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Something's gonna happen.

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Very few make it out a drug house

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and I know a very few of them people

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that make it out of a drug house
that don't do nothing.

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When I moved down here I never
heard of pain pills or nothin’.

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I never heard of heroin.
I never heard of meth.

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I never heard of cocaine until

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my son and husband
decided to sell it up here.

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We was all on it bad.

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Well, my daughter and them was
going out back and in the shed

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they was cookin’ it and
makin’ crack out of it.

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Then he got into smoking it

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so I did too.

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You know?

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When I was young I never,

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this LSD and all this,

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I didn’t really like that.

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You liked Valiums.

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Yeah. I used to love my
nerve pills. I loved them.

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Today I’ve got my pain pills but,

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we don’t do anything big.

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I do.

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We don’t do cocaine, or

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No, I don’t do cocaine.

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I take medication,

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but it’s prescribed, doctor,

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gotta do it,  take it as it says, but

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I still get wasted.

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Wasted now. I ain’t gonna lie to you.

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Wasted now. I ain’t gonna lie to you.
I’m high now.

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This is why he does
his pain medicine now.

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This is what drugs’ll do for you.

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My point now, what
drugs will do for you.

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All this is from open heart surgery.

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But, I say the drugs
led into all this though.

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Especially the coke

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because of the junk they cut it with.

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I’m sick.

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Dyin’.

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And I know I’m dyin’.

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But,

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I’d taste it again.

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C’mon.

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Go!

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[background chatter]

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Get in here little boys.

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So, Grandma, if

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you, if you like,

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if I get a good job

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and I get a lot of money
and a good house,

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would you live with me
when I get older?

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I sure as heck would, buddy.

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When you gonna get older?
Real soon, right?

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I'm gonna be a lawyer when I grow up.

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Law-yer, whatever
you want to call ’em.

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That’s what I’m planning on doing.

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And then after I
graduate from college,

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if that doesn't go perfectly,
I'm gonna become a YouTuber.

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- YouTuber?

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- YouTuber?
- Yeah.

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I'm gonna be a YouTuber
no matter what, just,

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it's gonna be a backup job as well.

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Because you get paid a lot
of money as a YouTuber.

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- Curtis, is this where
clouds come from?

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- Is this where clouds come from?
- No.

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This is where bad clouds come from.

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Curtis reminds me a lot of
J.P. when he was younger.

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J.P. coulda went places.

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He graduated. He was a smart boy.

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J.P.’s mom, my sister Sandra,

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ended up overdosing.

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She didn’t raise the kids.
My mom and my stepdad did.

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Feel like I’m

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worthless if I can't
overcome this addiction…

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then I'm just gonna give up.

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You know what I mean?

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So I’m not goin’ be...

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I'll be worthless. You know,
I'll never have nothing.

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I’ll never,

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never

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accomplish anything. And we’ll

00:11:15.591 --> 00:11:17.218
we’ll always be on

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the losing end of the battle.

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What, baby?

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It's somethin’ we're gonna have to
dig down a little bit deeper and get.

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Gettin a good workout.
These rocks are heavy.

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Neighbor said when he
did ‘em he had a hernia.

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I'm dirty as heck.

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This will be a start for us,
we can build on if we wanted to.

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We can fix it up as we go.

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You gotta get this off first.

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Right. That's what I’m lookin’ at.

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Be independent, you know,
rely on each other.

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Like,

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we had all kinds of friends and
everything, but as soon as we quit

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they all disappeared.

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I told J.P., we don't
need that around us.

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They should be happy we're
tryin’ to get our life back.

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He's stubborn just like his
grandpa and grandpa are.

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He's stubborn.

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If I can't make it,
I’m wanna have it in the contract

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that I can come back home.

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I don't like to jump all the way in.
I just wanna get my feet wet.

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You know what I mean?

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Um, I know what you mean.

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I don't know what I'm doin’. Do I?

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I know what you mean.

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I don't necessarily wanna come home.

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I just always want to
have that ability.

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But if I paid the electric and
everything down here

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you’ll stay, huh?

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No, I didn't say all that.

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Well,

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I can read between the lines.

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I mean that's a possibility. I may
need some help gettin’ on my feet.

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But I should have a job soon
even if it is flipping cheeseburgers.

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You know?

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I didn't put your face
on my side for nothin’.

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That's an ugly mug
to put on your side.

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You and grandma are part of my life.

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Part of my skin, too.

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(Announcer) Ok, let’s go fast,
2019 flopping competition

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(Announcer)
 right here at the Meigs County Fair.

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(Announcer)
Whoa! These guys are incredible!

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I want to thank these
folks for comin’ again.

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They will not tell me
where the Bat Cave is.

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I know it's not in Meigs County. So.

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All right, here's the deal.
Listen close.

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There has been a war declared
against this generation of kids.

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This is a special generation of kids

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and that's why the attacks

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are so heavy on this
generation of kids.

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Grownups are droppin’ the ball

00:14:01.799 --> 00:14:03.050
and we need to do better.

00:14:03.425 --> 00:14:05.219
What I'm here to give
you hope of grownups

00:14:05.719 --> 00:14:08.889
is that it is never too late
to redefine your life.

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Never.

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And this guy in this Batman suit,
I know what it means.

00:14:14.895 --> 00:14:18.065
Kids, you never know what
somebody's going through.

00:14:18.732 --> 00:14:20.568
I grew up in a broken home.

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I grew up with a daddy

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that didn't know how
o treat me too good.

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And the reason he didn't know how
to treat me too good was because

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his family didn't treat him too good.

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I've also been clean

00:14:33.330 --> 00:14:36.458
for 28 years this year.

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So I know what it takes.

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I know what it takes to
overcome this stuff.

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And I know what it takes to whip it.

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Everybody say overcomer.

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Overcomer.

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All right, I got what I
was trying to get.

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I like letting off, like,

00:15:29.970 --> 00:15:32.723
you know how humans
let off a lot of body heat?

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How these bees, you can
tell whenever they're dying

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'cause of they're getting frozen,

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'cause they start to try to move their
wings to keep themself warm.

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So I'm gonna keep him warm.

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Right now he's cleaning his antenna.

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I tried to save one because,

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I brought him inside, but he died.

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They freeze.

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It's cold.

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No, you just gotta drive.

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Put all my dirt all
over your new Corvette.

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Dad!

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You know, I don't know why they have

00:16:48.465 --> 00:16:49.633
all them drugs, 'cause

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I can take a couple aspirin, you know,

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and they help me.

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There's drugs everywhere here.

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Everywhere.

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Right down the uh,

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Promise Trailer Court,

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up on Minersville Hill,

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Watchtown Hill.

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Meth labs everywhere.

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I've been in, I don't know
how many of 'em, I told 'em,

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I don't care what they do,

00:17:19.079 --> 00:17:21.540
but when it comes to my
grandkids and kids, I care.

00:17:23.500 --> 00:17:25.252
Because I, I'm not scared of ’em.

00:17:28.422 --> 00:17:29.506
I lost three,

00:17:30.257 --> 00:17:32.092
three of my children,

00:17:33.343 --> 00:17:35.304
a grandchild,

00:17:35.304 --> 00:17:38.015
and then an older grandchild.

00:17:38.932 --> 00:17:40.017
But he was,

00:17:41.727 --> 00:17:43.562
he died here.

00:17:46.190 --> 00:17:48.609
He was layin’ on the floor in there.

00:17:49.818 --> 00:17:50.911
And, um,

00:17:51.445 --> 00:17:53.030
I kept shaking him, hollerin’ at him.

00:17:53.030 --> 00:17:54.031
He wouldn't get up

00:17:54.948 --> 00:17:55.866
and, uh,

00:17:55.866 --> 00:17:57.534
put a cold wash rag

00:17:58.118 --> 00:17:59.536
and stuff on him

00:17:59.536 --> 00:18:00.996
and he didn't move.

00:18:03.290 --> 00:18:04.333
But,

00:18:04.333 --> 00:18:07.044
I never sit in there. Never.

00:18:26.897 --> 00:18:29.900
(inaudible preacher)

00:18:32.361 --> 00:18:35.364
(Preacher) That they do good,
that they be rich in good works,

00:18:35.364 --> 00:18:38.242
(Preacher) ready to distribute,
willing to communicate.

00:18:38.242 --> 00:18:40.494
(Preacher)
There's a word there that I,

00:18:40.494 --> 00:18:43.205
(Preacher) I wanted to call our
attention to, and that's the word, ready.

00:18:43.497 --> 00:18:45.791
(Preacher)
Being ready, ready to do.

00:18:47.876 --> 00:18:50.295
If the Lord was to speak
to your heart today

00:18:51.255 --> 00:18:53.465
and tell you that he wanted
you to do something

00:18:53.757 --> 00:18:55.843
and it was not what you're doing now,

00:18:56.718 --> 00:18:58.345
how ready do you think you are

00:18:58.345 --> 00:18:59.847
to step away from
what you're doin’ now

00:18:59.847 --> 00:19:01.723
to do what the Lord
has called you to do?

00:19:02.766 --> 00:19:04.059
Scale of one to ten.

00:19:04.309 --> 00:19:06.228
I'd say honestly, I'm about an eight.

00:19:06.228 --> 00:19:08.397
- You’re ready?
- Probably, 'cause I'm lookin’ for some, I'm lookin’,

00:19:08.397 --> 00:19:10.065
I'm trying to find what
he wants me to do.

00:19:10.065 --> 00:19:12.484
I'm at that point in my life,
I'm transitioning, you know,

00:19:12.484 --> 00:19:14.778
and I'm trying to figure out
exactly where he wants me.

00:19:15.404 --> 00:19:17.322
But when you told me that,
you know, I need to be prepared

00:19:17.322 --> 00:19:18.740
for Satan, for the devil.

00:19:18.907 --> 00:19:20.909
'Cause I gotta have them
verses prepared in my heart

00:19:20.909 --> 00:19:21.952
to fight back.

00:19:21.952 --> 00:19:23.203
- Amen.
- And plus wisdom,

00:19:23.203 --> 00:19:24.913
'cause he talks to us
through the verses.

00:19:25.372 --> 00:19:27.374
I didn't know that.
So that was powerful for me.

00:19:28.125 --> 00:19:30.419
We come to ask you to
give us strength and courage

00:19:30.419 --> 00:19:31.920
to stay sober, Lord.

00:19:32.462 --> 00:19:34.882
When that preacher told me
I was forgiven, I just,

00:19:35.174 --> 00:19:36.508
I just started cryin’, you know?

00:19:36.508 --> 00:19:38.594
'Cause I did so much to so many

00:19:39.678 --> 00:19:42.097
people, you know, in my life.

00:19:42.099 --> 00:19:43.098
- Thank you.

00:19:43.098 --> 00:19:44.099
- Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

00:19:46.143 --> 00:19:47.811
You wanna ready the Daily Bread?

00:19:49.563 --> 00:19:50.772
I'm burnin’ up.

00:19:51.648 --> 00:19:53.317
Now I know

00:19:53.317 --> 00:19:54.860
that I got a greater cause

00:19:55.419 --> 00:19:56.445
And

00:19:56.445 --> 00:19:58.614
He's kept me alive to

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get some messages out there.

00:20:01.601 --> 00:20:02.618
- One.

00:20:02.618 --> 00:20:03.652
- One.
- One?

00:20:04.161 --> 00:20:05.178
In the back?

00:20:05.329 --> 00:20:06.496
How you doin’ today, ma'am?

00:20:07.289 --> 00:20:08.498
- It's fine. How many was it?

00:20:08.498 --> 00:20:09.566
- It's fine. How many was it?
- Two.

00:20:09.791 --> 00:20:12.211
It's amazing how many of these
people really need it, huh?

00:20:12.711 --> 00:20:13.712
They depend on this.

00:20:15.214 --> 00:20:17.549
When they changed the
breakdown of oxycodone,

00:20:17.549 --> 00:20:19.051
um, they changed it, so

00:20:19.051 --> 00:20:21.428
it's almost like it came
from outer space, really.

00:20:21.428 --> 00:20:23.263
You can't break 'em down unless
you put 'em in a microwave,

00:20:23.263 --> 00:20:24.264
put 'em in the oven.

00:20:25.182 --> 00:20:26.350
I was happy when they changed that

00:20:26.350 --> 00:20:28.101
'cause that was one of
my biggest struggles, was

00:20:28.101 --> 00:20:29.311
pharmaceutical, 'cause

00:20:29.311 --> 00:20:30.938
the heroin and stuff, you
don't know what you're gettin’

00:20:30.938 --> 00:20:32.773
so you get ripped off all the time.
You know what I mean?

00:20:32.773 --> 00:20:34.733
And you pay top dollar down here
and you get ripped off so

00:20:34.733 --> 00:20:36.985
the pill, what you're gettin’,
you know what I mean?

00:20:37.653 --> 00:20:38.820
But the Oxycontin went out

00:20:38.820 --> 00:20:40.280
and they come out with Opanas

00:20:40.697 --> 00:20:41.990
and Opanas was, uh,

00:20:42.699 --> 00:20:44.409
it was morphine and
Oxycontin together.

00:20:44.660 --> 00:20:46.119
And it was like, wow, what?

00:20:46.119 --> 00:20:47.246
Why would they do that?

00:20:48.247 --> 00:20:49.748
Of course, I got hooked on them.

00:20:51.333 --> 00:20:52.876
Ma’am, be careful with this box.

00:20:52.876 --> 00:20:54.044
When you get it outta the car,

00:20:54.044 --> 00:20:55.963
tell whoever gets out,
be careful. I ripped it.

00:20:56.029 --> 00:20:57.089
Oh, okay.

00:20:57.089 --> 00:20:59.299
I love puppies.
You got all kinds, huh?

00:21:06.723 --> 00:21:07.766
There we go.

00:21:07.766 --> 00:21:08.892
I’m changing my life.

00:21:08.892 --> 00:21:10.519
Goin’ from negative to good and,

00:21:10.894 --> 00:21:12.896
I’m doin’ all the
good I can and all the

00:21:13.355 --> 00:21:15.899
volunteer work. Just trying
to get, back on track.

00:21:15.899 --> 00:21:17.693
Basically giving back to
the community, you know.

00:21:18.277 --> 00:21:21.238
I got in a car accident 11 years ago
and killed my fiancée.

00:21:21.655 --> 00:21:24.700
I went to prison for it and,
uh, did seven years

00:21:24.992 --> 00:21:27.035
just coming out, it's a,

00:21:27.035 --> 00:21:28.787
- people deserve an
opportunity, you know?

00:21:28.787 --> 00:21:29.955
- people deserve an opportunity, you know?
- Yes that’s true.

00:21:29.955 --> 00:21:31.123
A second chance, yes.

00:21:31.123 --> 00:21:33.250
Everybody deserves a second chance.

00:21:33.250 --> 00:21:34.459
- I believe that in my heart.

00:21:34.459 --> 00:21:35.585
- I believe that in my heart.
- Yes, I do too.

00:21:35.585 --> 00:21:36.545
- God bless you.

00:21:36.545 --> 00:21:37.337
- God bless you.
- Very good.

00:21:37.337 --> 00:21:38.422
- And you have a good day.

00:21:38.422 --> 00:21:39.339
- And you have a good day.
- I will, thank you.

00:21:39.339 --> 00:21:40.632
- Thanks again, see you next month.

00:21:40.632 --> 00:21:41.550
- Thanks again, see you next month.
- Okay.

00:21:50.392 --> 00:21:51.435
I don't,

00:21:51.435 --> 00:21:53.270
there's nothin’ I can do or say to

00:21:55.605 --> 00:21:57.899
bring her back for her family.

00:22:08.452 --> 00:22:10.454
We go out the road,
we get to my buddy's house,

00:22:10.662 --> 00:22:11.830
we get the Oxycontin.

00:22:12.039 --> 00:22:13.165
My buddy has some,

00:22:13.165 --> 00:22:15.334
some dope that he grew.
He wanted me to try.

00:22:15.334 --> 00:22:16.335
Well, I smoked the joint,

00:22:16.335 --> 00:22:17.586
kicked the pills in.

00:22:17.586 --> 00:22:19.212
I don't remember the ride home much,

00:22:19.212 --> 00:22:20.255
and I was drivin’.

00:22:22.299 --> 00:22:24.885
I was comin’ down the highway and
she pinched the back of my arm.

00:22:24.885 --> 00:22:26.970
She said, "Hey, you almost
went off the road."

00:22:28.055 --> 00:22:29.138
You know.

00:22:30.474 --> 00:22:32.476
I actually fell asleep at the wheel,

00:22:32.476 --> 00:22:33.493
hit the train culvert

00:22:33.496 --> 00:22:35.812
and my axle grabbed
ahold of the pavement,

00:22:38.815 --> 00:22:40.734
flipped my truck two and a half times

00:22:41.485 --> 00:22:43.111
and ejected her out the windshield.

00:22:48.784 --> 00:22:50.869
Somehow she didn't break
no bones or nothin’.

00:22:50.869 --> 00:22:51.995
She just hit her head

00:22:51.995 --> 00:22:53.413
and she was just brain dead.

00:22:59.086 --> 00:23:00.087
I had

00:23:00.796 --> 00:23:02.923
diazepam, which is Valium,

00:23:02.923 --> 00:23:04.091
marijuana,

00:23:04.091 --> 00:23:05.675
oxycodone,

00:23:05.675 --> 00:23:07.761
cocaine and methadone

00:23:07.761 --> 00:23:09.429
all in my urine.

00:23:12.933 --> 00:23:14.726
They arrested me the next day

00:23:15.185 --> 00:23:16.561
for vehicular homicide.

00:23:17.604 --> 00:23:18.688
Two counts.

00:23:18.939 --> 00:23:20.023
She was pregnant.

00:23:23.735 --> 00:23:25.070
We didn't even know.

00:23:27.989 --> 00:23:29.574
So more or less,
now they're tellin’ me that

00:23:29.574 --> 00:23:31.410
not only did I kill my best friend I,

00:23:32.327 --> 00:23:34.830
I killed my own baby. You know?

00:23:36.248 --> 00:23:37.999
I cried from Huntington to here.

00:23:39.292 --> 00:23:41.545
I just, I wanted it out of this world.

00:23:42.629 --> 00:23:44.423
33 days after that happened,

00:23:44.423 --> 00:23:46.007
I was sittin’ in the penitentiary.

00:23:47.592 --> 00:23:49.594
Most assuredly, I say to you,

00:23:50.011 --> 00:23:53.765
he who believes in Me,
the works that I do

00:23:53.765 --> 00:23:55.434
he will do also.

00:23:56.143 --> 00:23:58.437
And whatever you ask in My name,

00:23:58.895 --> 00:23:59.980
that I will do,

00:23:59.980 --> 00:24:02.774
If you ask anything in
My name, I will do it.

00:24:02.774 --> 00:24:05.110
My tattoos, it's kind of crazy now,

00:24:05.110 --> 00:24:06.736
I'm kind of ashamed of them.

00:24:07.320 --> 00:24:10.615
I never got a piece on me that
didn't have some kind of meaning.

00:24:11.491 --> 00:24:15.078
Most of 'em are very demonic,

00:24:15.662 --> 00:24:17.914
skin stretched and
skin tearing, you know?

00:24:17.914 --> 00:24:19.916
And that's the way I felt.

00:24:22.919 --> 00:24:24.546
I'm still on the fence, man.

00:24:24.546 --> 00:24:26.006
I'm still straddlin’.

00:24:26.756 --> 00:24:28.925
I could go right or left at any time.

00:24:31.261 --> 00:24:33.054
When I hated myself,

00:24:33.597 --> 00:24:36.725
that wouldn't enable me
to love anybody else.

00:24:39.644 --> 00:24:42.772
That place just, it breeds hate.

00:24:44.774 --> 00:24:46.276
Slowly but surely.

00:24:46.276 --> 00:24:48.153
You're stickin’ with your
race more and more.

00:24:48.153 --> 00:24:50.947
I got to where I wouldn’t even
sit by a Black man.

00:24:54.826 --> 00:24:56.578
The Aryan Brotherhood.
That's the top honkies.

00:24:56.578 --> 00:24:58.413
You know, even the COs respect them.

00:24:58.663 --> 00:25:01.082
And that's one of the
reasons why I accepted.

00:25:02.667 --> 00:25:04.002
It was hard comin’ out here

00:25:04.628 --> 00:25:07.464
to the real world where
I wasn't nobody.

00:25:07.923 --> 00:25:09.049
I wasn't nothing.

00:25:10.800 --> 00:25:13.220
I want to close that
chapter in my life

00:25:13.220 --> 00:25:14.930
and I want to start new.

00:25:16.264 --> 00:25:18.099
All’s I want is

00:25:20.936 --> 00:25:23.355
just to be happy,
I guess I'd say. And just

00:25:24.606 --> 00:25:27.275
the life everybody else
thinks of as normal and

00:25:27.275 --> 00:25:28.902
5 to 9 boring.

00:25:29.194 --> 00:25:30.904
That's what I want.

00:26:01.977 --> 00:26:03.478
Just give it another minute or two.

00:26:07.732 --> 00:26:08.799
Uh-oh, an egg.

00:26:08.801 --> 00:26:09.526
- Grandma!

00:26:09.526 --> 00:26:10.527
- Grandma.
- Grandma!

00:26:12.571 --> 00:26:14.573
Now you made two go out.

00:26:14.573 --> 00:26:15.824
- You see what you do.
- Oh, that's all right.

00:26:15.824 --> 00:26:17.993
You see what you do when
you're in here and cooking?

00:26:17.993 --> 00:26:18.997
You mess it up.

00:26:18.999 --> 00:26:20.078
I clean my messes up.

00:26:20.495 --> 00:26:21.746
I love you, Grandma.

00:26:24.624 --> 00:26:25.625
I love you buddy.

00:26:26.001 --> 00:26:27.210
What do you do now?

00:26:28.545 --> 00:26:29.637
No.

00:26:49.232 --> 00:26:51.651
Papa, you're strong.

00:26:53.028 --> 00:26:55.530
I worry about Curtis a lot.

00:26:56.281 --> 00:26:58.491
Yup, I worry about him a lot.

00:26:58.491 --> 00:26:59.618
Sure do.

00:27:03.330 --> 00:27:04.389
He’s at that age,

00:27:04.391 --> 00:27:06.166
experimental age.

00:27:06.833 --> 00:27:08.543
And the way this family is,

00:27:08.543 --> 00:27:11.296
this is all fucked up, man.

00:27:16.593 --> 00:27:18.845
I think it’s hereditary. Yeah.

00:27:21.681 --> 00:27:23.391
Just like diabetes,

00:27:23.808 --> 00:27:25.518
heart disease.

00:27:27.395 --> 00:27:30.440
You pass it down to your kids.

00:27:35.028 --> 00:27:38.698
You look at me I’m
a sitting experience.

00:27:42.911 --> 00:27:44.579
My dad was an alcoholic.

00:27:46.039 --> 00:27:48.667
I don’t give a damn
where I hid in that house.

00:27:49.084 --> 00:27:51.252
It’s like he knew where I was.

00:27:56.466 --> 00:27:58.677
And sure enough he’d find me.

00:28:01.346 --> 00:28:02.380
And...

00:28:03.264 --> 00:28:05.517
He’d hold his hand over my face.

00:28:08.103 --> 00:28:09.521
To where he took my breath.

00:28:09.521 --> 00:28:11.690
Then, he’d turn me, turn it loose

00:28:12.857 --> 00:28:14.859
and he’d smack my face.

00:28:14.859 --> 00:28:16.403
He’d slap the shit out of me.

00:28:16.403 --> 00:28:18.571
Have my nose and mouth bleeding.

00:28:18.947 --> 00:28:21.116
I’d say, “That don’t hurt.”

00:28:22.367 --> 00:28:23.576
He’d do it harder.

00:28:25.578 --> 00:28:27.747
He kept doin’ that till I was probably

00:28:30.125 --> 00:28:32.001
13, 14 years-old.

00:28:32.711 --> 00:28:34.587
And I just got sick of it.

00:28:38.758 --> 00:28:41.928
He had a .44 Smith and Wesson.

00:28:42.637 --> 00:28:44.806
I found where he hid it at

00:28:47.142 --> 00:28:49.310
and I found a couple bullets for it.

00:28:50.186 --> 00:28:52.355
So I put ‘em in the gun.

00:28:52.355 --> 00:28:54.524
I pulled the hammer back on it

00:28:55.150 --> 00:28:57.485
and had it sittin’ at the
top of the steps,

00:28:57.861 --> 00:28:58.920
like that.

00:28:59.529 --> 00:29:01.865
Waiting on Dad to come in the door.

00:29:02.157 --> 00:29:04.701
I’d done made my mind up
I was gonna kill him.

00:29:08.079 --> 00:29:10.415
When I heard the keys rattlin’

00:29:11.332 --> 00:29:14.252
I put that gun up on my leg,

00:29:15.253 --> 00:29:17.589
had my finger on the trigger,

00:29:17.756 --> 00:29:20.091
and when Mom stepped through the door,

00:29:20.258 --> 00:29:22.010
I could have vomitted.

00:29:22.469 --> 00:29:24.429
If the porch light hand’t been on

00:29:24.429 --> 00:29:26.347
I’d a probably shot Mom.

00:29:28.308 --> 00:29:30.977
So, that was Dad.

00:29:40.278 --> 00:29:41.571
Dad!

00:29:41.571 --> 00:29:42.864
What?

00:29:46.659 --> 00:29:48.036
Go ahead. Save it.

00:29:48.036 --> 00:29:49.871
He’ll grab a hold of it.

00:29:53.082 --> 00:29:54.167
Give it a minute.

00:29:57.629 --> 00:29:59.047
Now pick up on it.

00:30:09.265 --> 00:30:10.266
Dad!

00:30:13.812 --> 00:30:15.730
Dad, I got him out.

00:30:15.730 --> 00:30:16.648
- You got him out?

00:30:16.648 --> 00:30:18.983
- You got him out?
- Yeah, look, you dry him off.

00:30:19.234 --> 00:30:20.235
See?

00:30:23.571 --> 00:30:24.864
Stop!

00:30:26.157 --> 00:30:27.242
What do you mean stop?

00:30:27.242 --> 00:30:30.245
Stop!

00:30:33.706 --> 00:30:34.916
He ain't gonna hurt ya.

00:30:38.044 --> 00:30:39.838
Oh! Chicken out!

00:30:41.673 --> 00:30:43.174
Daddy chickened out.

00:30:49.806 --> 00:30:51.057
Stick to Jesus.

00:30:52.058 --> 00:30:53.601
You want a good life.

00:30:54.352 --> 00:30:55.478
Stick to Jesus.

00:30:55.478 --> 00:30:57.730
Give Him all the praise and the glory.

00:31:01.359 --> 00:31:03.444
The more you seek Him,
the more you’ll find Him,

00:31:03.444 --> 00:31:06.865
and then the more you’ll see
how much He loves you.

00:31:08.741 --> 00:31:11.077
Then you’ll have a awesome life.

00:31:13.288 --> 00:31:16.040
Put Him ahead of everything.

00:31:22.589 --> 00:31:24.924
As I stand here today,

00:31:26.342 --> 00:31:27.969
I know where I was at.

00:31:29.762 --> 00:31:33.391
On my knees in the front
of the Lord His-self.

00:31:33.641 --> 00:31:36.060
Seen two baby angels.

00:31:36.811 --> 00:31:38.479
And I seen all of

00:31:38.479 --> 00:31:40.815
Jesus standin’ there but His face and

00:31:40.815 --> 00:31:44.652
it was like lookin’ into the brightest
thing you could ever imagine.

00:31:45.653 --> 00:31:46.687
And....

00:31:48.698 --> 00:31:49.732
yeah,

00:31:49.908 --> 00:31:51.701
when I came out of that,

00:31:51.701 --> 00:31:54.203
the sweat was pourin’ off of me.

00:31:54.996 --> 00:31:56.205
I couldn’t cuss,

00:31:56.205 --> 00:31:57.332
I couldn’t nothin.

00:31:57.332 --> 00:31:58.708
I was brand new.

00:31:58.708 --> 00:32:01.878
And that time I sat and sang
in praise and look up

00:32:01.878 --> 00:32:03.755
I seen Jesus.

00:32:06.174 --> 00:32:07.425
He’s the greatest thing

00:32:07.425 --> 00:32:09.719
that ever happend to me in my life.

00:32:11.262 --> 00:32:13.681
One day, boy, one day.

00:32:17.268 --> 00:32:18.561
Dominic.

00:32:37.789 --> 00:32:40.291
I gotta fuckin’ tree I gotta go up.

00:32:41.167 --> 00:32:42.794
It’s a seventy foot tall.

00:34:25.146 --> 00:34:26.189
What?

00:34:26.849 --> 00:34:27.857
Huh? Chop-chop.

00:34:27.857 --> 00:34:29.233
Nice to meet you, buddy.

00:34:29.525 --> 00:34:31.069
You got your tuxedo on?

00:34:32.236 --> 00:34:33.654
You ready to go to the dance?

00:34:34.072 --> 00:34:35.490
You love your daddy, don't you?

00:34:35.948 --> 00:34:37.366
You’re about the only one, ain't ya?

00:34:39.285 --> 00:34:40.286
That's a good boy.

00:34:48.002 --> 00:34:49.837
Let me show you what to do.

00:34:51.322 --> 00:34:52.340
I could probably do that a bit.

00:34:52.340 --> 00:34:54.425
I tried it clear across
in there and I hadn't...

00:34:56.844 --> 00:34:58.554
I just put a piece up through there.

00:35:00.264 --> 00:35:01.265
Now.

00:35:02.183 --> 00:35:03.810
I was lookin’ through my
stuff last night and

00:35:03.810 --> 00:35:06.437
I found that video of Mom
the day before she died.

00:35:06.938 --> 00:35:07.939
And um,

00:35:08.523 --> 00:35:09.774
it's on your birthday.

00:35:10.316 --> 00:35:11.484
Kinda ironic.

00:35:11.484 --> 00:35:12.485
What is?

00:35:12.485 --> 00:35:14.028
When Mom died, when I went around...

00:35:14.028 --> 00:35:15.154
You don’t know my birthday.

00:35:15.154 --> 00:35:17.365
She didn't die on my birthday,
J.P. Don't talk about that.

00:35:17.365 --> 00:35:18.699
She died the day after, Grandma.

00:35:18.699 --> 00:35:19.992
I don't wanna hear it.

00:35:19.992 --> 00:35:21.869
Anyways I got that video if
you ever wanna watch it.

00:35:22.370 --> 00:35:23.871
I cannot look at the pictures.

00:35:23.871 --> 00:35:26.207
I don't wanna talk about it. Okay?

00:35:30.419 --> 00:35:32.421
Why do you want to
talk about that stuff?

00:35:32.755 --> 00:35:34.757
Believe it or not, Grandma,
it helps to talk about it.

00:35:34.757 --> 00:35:36.384
Well, it don't help me none.

00:35:36.384 --> 00:35:38.594
And that's why you're in denial.

00:35:41.639 --> 00:35:43.474
I don't care if it does or not.

00:35:46.769 --> 00:35:48.271
Is that why you stay busy though?

00:35:48.271 --> 00:35:48.899
- Huh?

00:35:48.899 --> 00:35:49.857
- Huh?
- So you don't think about things?

00:35:49.857 --> 00:35:50.857
That's right.

00:35:53.234 --> 00:35:55.361
My spine is deterioratin’

00:35:55.987 --> 00:35:57.989
and I can do my own stuff.

00:35:58.573 --> 00:36:00.199
I don't ask no one to help me.

00:36:00.575 --> 00:36:02.410
When I can't do my own thing,

00:36:02.743 --> 00:36:03.911
then I'll die.

00:36:05.663 --> 00:36:06.539
Yeah, I guess.

00:36:06.539 --> 00:36:09.041
I've worked two jobs to keep you kids

00:36:09.709 --> 00:36:11.419
and my kids, then

00:36:11.794 --> 00:36:14.380
I've had more trouble with you
three kids than I've had with

00:36:14.797 --> 00:36:16.007
seven of 'em.

00:36:18.384 --> 00:36:19.552
Oh, God.

00:36:22.219 --> 00:36:23.222
- Not that.

00:36:23.222 --> 00:36:24.432
- Not that.
- Heck with it!

00:36:32.481 --> 00:36:35.735
I gotta get doin’ somethin’
else before I give up.

00:36:39.238 --> 00:36:41.365
Did you expect to
find me dead already?

00:36:42.742 --> 00:36:43.826
It wouldn't surprise me.

00:36:43.826 --> 00:36:45.828
I thought maybe you’s
gonna kill me now.

00:36:46.005 --> 00:36:46.871
- You did?

00:36:46.871 --> 00:36:47.947
- You did?
- Yes I did.

00:36:48.080 --> 00:36:50.583
On them drugs and you
told me to “watch my back.”

00:36:51.959 --> 00:36:54.837
Yeah, I get mad when I ain’t
gettin’ my way wouldn’t I?

00:36:54.837 --> 00:36:57.381
and I said,
“You better watch your back.”

00:36:57.422 --> 00:36:58.424
Yeah.

00:36:58.424 --> 00:36:59.967
- I get mad when
I didn’t get my way...

00:36:59.967 --> 00:37:01.260
- I get mad when I didn’t get my way...
- Terry,

00:37:01.886 --> 00:37:02.887
I remember,

00:37:03.554 --> 00:37:05.056
Terry and Kathy used to
be scared that–

00:37:05.056 --> 00:37:06.599
I can't believe that you
didn't believe me though

00:37:06.599 --> 00:37:08.434
that little Terry molested me.

00:37:08.434 --> 00:37:08.976
What?

00:37:08.976 --> 00:37:10.645
When I told you little Terry
molested me. I couldn’t–

00:37:10.645 --> 00:37:11.687
What little Terry?

00:37:11.687 --> 00:37:13.189
Yeah. So I'm lyin’?

00:37:13.814 --> 00:37:16.317
I don't know if you're lyin’.
I think you're mistaken.

00:37:17.068 --> 00:37:18.319
Yeah, I'm mistaken.

00:37:18.319 --> 00:37:20.071
- Up there at that trailer
when you wasn't around.

00:37:20.071 --> 00:37:21.280
- Up there at that trailer when you wasn't around.
- He never come up there.

00:37:21.280 --> 00:37:22.281
Yes he did.

00:37:22.657 --> 00:37:24.492
He stayed up there with us one summer.

00:37:25.117 --> 00:37:28.037
I don't think I can mistake someone
sticking their penis in me.

00:37:29.705 --> 00:37:30.456
But–

00:37:30.456 --> 00:37:33.084
Well, I can't believe you wouldn't
tell someone either, so.

00:37:33.501 --> 00:37:34.752
I didn't know

00:37:34.752 --> 00:37:36.045
really when I was that young.

00:37:37.713 --> 00:37:39.757
- It’s the past though. No big deal.

00:37:39.757 --> 00:37:40.675
- It’s the past though. No big deal.
- I don't believe it.

00:37:40.675 --> 00:37:42.885
Why the fuck would I
lie about that? Honestly?

00:37:42.885 --> 00:37:45.096
Now. What did you say?

00:37:45.096 --> 00:37:47.056
I said why the fuck would I lie
about that? That hurts my feelings.

00:37:47.056 --> 00:37:48.307
Now. You're goin’ to
church tonight, aren't you?

00:37:48.307 --> 00:37:49.600
- I don't care about church.
You're callin’ me a liar.

00:37:49.600 --> 00:37:50.518
- I don't care about church. You're callin’ me a liar.
- All right then.

00:37:50.518 --> 00:37:52.144
You're sayin’ you don't believe me,
Grandma. That hurts.

00:37:52.144 --> 00:37:53.604
I'd a heard it a long time ago.

00:37:53.604 --> 00:37:55.398
No, Grandma.
I swear to God it happened.

00:37:56.357 --> 00:37:58.109
I wouldn't have no
reason to lie about that.

00:37:58.109 --> 00:38:00.069
Ya have no reason to cuss like that.

00:38:00.069 --> 00:38:01.320
Well it hurt my feelings

00:38:01.320 --> 00:38:03.698
- Well, dear, dear.
- and I cuss when it hurts my feelings.

00:38:04.115 --> 00:38:06.575
Okay, I gotta get my work done.

00:38:06.575 --> 00:38:08.119
I'm not gonna sit and listen to you.

00:38:08.119 --> 00:38:10.329
All right. I gotta get
ready for church anyway.

00:38:50.369 --> 00:38:52.079
J.P.’s brother, Donald,

00:38:52.079 --> 00:38:53.998
he don’t want to get off drugs.

00:38:55.124 --> 00:38:57.126
I picked him up from
jail a couple times.

00:38:57.668 --> 00:39:00.296
(Donald singing)
It's a beautiful mornin’.

00:39:00.296 --> 00:39:01.881
Give me a kiss aunt Cheryl.

00:39:02.340 --> 00:39:03.341
Come on.

00:39:04.999 --> 00:39:05.718
Stinks.

00:39:05.718 --> 00:39:07.386
Smells like kerosene. I don’t know.

00:39:09.138 --> 00:39:10.806
I'm goin’ to a crack house
up in Columbus.

00:39:11.054 --> 00:39:12.058
13 years old.

00:39:12.058 --> 00:39:14.268
I started off with $50,
got ripped off the first $50.

00:39:14.268 --> 00:39:16.103
Then went from $100
and went to $10,000.

00:39:16.103 --> 00:39:18.230
I met my wife Tia when I was 14.

00:39:18.230 --> 00:39:20.274
I had about $7,000 in my pocket.

00:39:20.274 --> 00:39:21.525
Eight ounces of crack.

00:39:21.525 --> 00:39:23.527
That was mine, ask her,
she’ll tell you.

00:39:24.487 --> 00:39:25.502
Watch. Watch this.

00:39:26.781 --> 00:39:29.033
The day I met you, the day I met you,

00:39:29.033 --> 00:39:30.910
what, what property did I have on me?

00:39:31.160 --> 00:39:34.580
Oh my God, like $5,000
and a bunch of crack.

00:39:35.731 --> 00:39:36.791
Bunches of crack.

00:39:36.791 --> 00:39:39.001
That's before I started smoking it.
I was hustlin’ for Timmy and them.

00:39:40.878 --> 00:39:42.296
She said, “How old are you?”
I said 17.

00:39:42.296 --> 00:39:43.631
Took her to Grandma's.
Grandma said, “How old's she?”

00:39:43.631 --> 00:39:45.049
I said, “She's only 16.”

00:39:45.049 --> 00:39:46.926
Grandma said, “You just
turned 14 the other day.”

00:39:46.926 --> 00:39:47.802
She's 19.

00:39:48.052 --> 00:39:49.845
She done fell in love with Daddy.
You hear me though?

00:40:04.819 --> 00:40:05.820
This is all you do.

00:40:11.659 --> 00:40:12.910
You need to try to floss.

00:40:13.285 --> 00:40:14.537
Do it now. Everybody get up.

00:40:15.621 --> 00:40:17.123
Everybody floss. It's needed.

00:40:18.207 --> 00:40:19.792
Then we're never gonna
cheer up these clouds,

00:40:19.792 --> 00:40:21.043
it's all gonna be hot.

00:40:22.628 --> 00:40:24.380
Anybody know how to
do the spaghetti dance?

00:40:26.507 --> 00:40:27.508
You just gotta go.

00:40:28.467 --> 00:40:30.094
You're just movin’ your arms.

00:40:30.678 --> 00:40:31.887
And then I'm a wet noodle.

00:40:32.638 --> 00:40:33.764
Everybody else has to be noodles.

00:40:33.764 --> 00:40:35.766
And then we gotta have
the sauce and the meatball.

00:40:36.499 --> 00:40:37.518
Come on.

00:40:38.519 --> 00:40:40.020
Y'all are a bunch of party poopers.

00:40:41.230 --> 00:40:43.065
How we going dance
if y'all ain't even moving?

00:40:43.858 --> 00:40:45.943
I kind of go numb inside I guess,

00:40:45.943 --> 00:40:46.694
'cause like

00:40:46.694 --> 00:40:48.696
it's not that easy to
just quit I guess

00:40:48.696 --> 00:40:51.365
because if it is, I don't know
why my family hadn't already

00:40:51.782 --> 00:40:53.409
did it a long time ago.

00:41:26.108 --> 00:41:27.610
Call T.A.  Fuck it.

00:41:29.195 --> 00:41:31.405
I'm not waitin’ around
for these motherfuckers,

00:41:31.739 --> 00:41:32.801
I'm not doin’ it.

00:41:35.201 --> 00:41:36.035
Where at?

00:41:36.035 --> 00:41:37.620
Okay, behind the bank on Fourth?

00:41:39.163 --> 00:41:40.170
All right.

00:41:41.248 --> 00:41:42.249
Here.

00:41:43.209 --> 00:41:44.960
Would it be too late then, buddy?
We're uh...

00:41:45.127 --> 00:41:46.462
Here comes a cop towards me.

00:41:46.795 --> 00:41:48.631
They all fuckin’ know me man.

00:41:48.631 --> 00:41:50.049
They know I don't have a license.

00:41:51.425 --> 00:41:53.636
If I get pulled over I'm goin’
straight to fuckin’ jail.

00:41:57.139 --> 00:41:59.350
If we get down there and they
fuck around I'm going to T.A.

00:42:00.142 --> 00:42:01.936
You sat there and said
they was fuckin’ there.

00:42:01.936 --> 00:42:04.021
That's the only reason why you're
fuckin’ doin’ this Donald.

00:42:04.355 --> 00:42:07.525
Look you dumb fuckin’ piece of shit.
Man, you're dumb as fuck.

00:42:07.525 --> 00:42:08.489
You know I'm just goin’ home.

00:42:08.491 --> 00:42:10.027
Look, I said what room you in?

00:42:10.027 --> 00:42:11.529
They haven’t answered me back yet.

00:42:11.820 --> 00:42:14.323
I'm sick and tired of
chasin’ after fuckin’ dope.

00:42:17.660 --> 00:42:18.786
I'm just gettin’ tired of it.

00:42:43.727 --> 00:42:44.895
It's pretty here ain't it?

00:42:50.985 --> 00:42:52.611
Hmm, what’d they cut this with?

00:42:53.112 --> 00:42:54.119
Lemme taste it.

00:42:54.989 --> 00:42:56.782
Mm. Mm mm mm.

00:42:59.076 --> 00:43:01.328
He's big, big, big Black dude.

00:43:02.121 --> 00:43:03.247
But you know what they call him?

00:43:03.899 --> 00:43:04.623
Tiny.

00:43:04.623 --> 00:43:05.663
Tiny?

00:43:05.666 --> 00:43:06.667
That’s who it was.

00:43:08.002 --> 00:43:09.253
Which way we goin’ back out?

00:43:10.963 --> 00:43:12.131
See, I'm already done.

00:43:17.761 --> 00:43:19.430
Ahh, you feel it?

00:43:20.723 --> 00:43:21.723
Mm-hmm.

00:43:22.099 --> 00:43:23.102
Yeah.

00:43:23.050 --> 00:43:24.018
You good?

00:43:24.018 --> 00:43:25.021
Yep.

00:43:27.354 --> 00:43:28.355
Where’s the salt?

00:43:29.273 --> 00:43:30.482
I don't feel it yet.

00:43:31.191 --> 00:43:32.610
Because you just
gotta it you dumb ass.

00:43:32.610 --> 00:43:33.614
You feel it?

00:43:34.862 --> 00:43:35.946
Yes. I feel it.

00:43:36.488 --> 00:43:37.740
It's comin’ on even more.

00:43:37.740 --> 00:43:38.741
You know how it turns your stomach?

00:43:39.742 --> 00:43:40.804
You got it?

00:43:41.035 --> 00:43:42.161
It's makin’ me sick.

00:43:43.099 --> 00:43:44.121
- Well, you missed me.

00:43:44.121 --> 00:43:45.956
- Well, you missed me.
- Look at my arm. Oh my God.

00:43:46.832 --> 00:43:48.292
I'ma do a second
‘cause I don't feel it.

00:44:06.810 --> 00:44:07.895
You scared me.

00:44:08.103 --> 00:44:09.146
Got some poppers.

00:44:09.146 --> 00:44:10.272
You scared me!

00:44:11.565 --> 00:44:12.601
Just get up?

00:44:12.858 --> 00:44:14.318
Yeah, just a while back.

00:44:15.110 --> 00:44:17.154
I got two poppers in my pocket.

00:44:17.571 --> 00:44:18.614
Wanna pop one?

00:44:24.995 --> 00:44:25.996
Mine was louder.

00:44:29.249 --> 00:44:31.251
If I had a piece of paper
I could show you a trick with it.

00:44:31.251 --> 00:44:32.670
Make a popper out of it.

00:44:32.670 --> 00:44:33.671
Can you really?

00:44:33.671 --> 00:44:36.173
Yeah, I can make ‘em pop
about a hundred times.

00:44:36.173 --> 00:44:38.842
You know what you’re,
you can do a lot of stuff, Curtis.

00:44:40.177 --> 00:44:41.387
You're amazing, man.

00:44:41.387 --> 00:44:43.889
- My friend taught me how to do it.
- You’re smart, y'know what I’m sayin’?

00:44:43.889 --> 00:44:46.392
Do somethin’ with your life, boy.
For real.

00:44:47.601 --> 00:44:48.686
I think I will.

00:44:48.686 --> 00:44:49.478
- Hit this baby girl.
Hit this baby girl.

00:44:49.478 --> 00:44:51.105
- Hit this baby girl. Hit this baby girl.
- Hey my sister. That’s my girl.

00:44:52.189 --> 00:44:53.104
Hit that.

00:44:53.107 --> 00:44:55.275
Tia hit this jay. She’s lonely.

00:44:56.026 --> 00:44:58.362
I told him on the phone I'm
comin’ down there. I'm live.

00:44:59.029 --> 00:45:00.030
- Wide open bitches. What’s up?

00:45:00.030 --> 00:45:01.281
- Wide open bitches. What’s up?
- I'm not gettin’ in a fuckin’ fight.

00:45:01.281 --> 00:45:02.574
I'm not takin’ you down there to fight.

00:45:02.574 --> 00:45:03.604
Oh, I'm gonna rob that bitch.

00:45:03.606 --> 00:45:04.618
Naw, I'm gonna go in there, ’n be cool.

00:45:04.618 --> 00:45:06.537
I'mma say hey baby girl.
What's up? What’s you?

00:45:08.163 --> 00:45:10.165
[inaudible chatter]

00:45:42.698 --> 00:45:45.451
“Well, I was standin’ on the
corner sellin' rap CDs”

00:45:45.451 --> 00:45:47.703
“When I met a little girl named Jan”

00:45:47.703 --> 00:45:49.246
“I let her ride in my Caddy”

00:45:49.246 --> 00:45:51.457
- “cause I didn't know her daddy was
the leader of the Ku Klux Klan”

00:45:51.457 --> 00:45:52.000
- “cause I didn't know her daddy was
the leader of the Ku Klux Klan”

00:45:52.000 --> 00:45:53.000
- Oh, hold on, hold on, hold on.

00:45:53.000 --> 00:45:55.669
“We fucked on the bed,
fucked on the floor.”

00:45:55.669 --> 00:45:57.629
“Fucked so long I grew a fuckin' afro.”

00:45:57.629 --> 00:46:00.299
“Then I fucked to the left,
fucked to the right.”

00:46:07.306 --> 00:46:09.308
Dad, please wake up!

00:46:12.186 --> 00:46:14.646
Hey John! They’re putting him in,
he’s not breathing!

00:46:15.481 --> 00:46:16.482
Look!

00:46:18.567 --> 00:46:20.068
They're not doing shit!

00:46:27.451 --> 00:46:30.162
These doctors can’t tell you
how long you have to live.

00:46:32.581 --> 00:46:33.957
He got on his medicine.

00:46:35.042 --> 00:46:36.835
I think he took too many of them.

00:46:39.296 --> 00:46:40.756
They call them Roxys.

00:46:41.507 --> 00:46:42.966
It’s 15 milligram.

00:46:43.467 --> 00:46:45.344
Ya’ll ain't doing nothing! No!

00:46:45.677 --> 00:46:47.095
I have the freedom of speech!

00:46:47.095 --> 00:46:48.347
Curtis. That's right.

00:46:48.639 --> 00:46:49.932
I don’t have to!

00:46:50.390 --> 00:46:52.267
You are heartless!

00:46:59.358 --> 00:47:01.193
Everybody says he’s lookin’ down.

00:47:02.903 --> 00:47:04.738
I don’t know about all that stuff.

00:47:10.035 --> 00:47:12.120
Since I been a kid going to church,

00:47:12.955 --> 00:47:14.790
they’ve said God is comin’.

00:47:16.792 --> 00:47:18.710
He could do something with the world

00:47:18.710 --> 00:47:20.212
if He wanted to.

00:47:22.589 --> 00:47:24.758
But, evidently, He don’t want to.

00:48:00.168 --> 00:48:01.169
Dominic,

00:48:02.504 --> 00:48:03.589
you can wait until...

00:48:04.840 --> 00:48:08.552
My parents were accused of having
drugs in their system by a cop.

00:48:08.886 --> 00:48:11.972
Then they came to us
the day after and

00:48:11.972 --> 00:48:13.181
they came and picked us up.

00:48:15.475 --> 00:48:16.894
We were only told we would be here

00:48:17.019 --> 00:48:17.890
three days?

00:48:17.895 --> 00:48:18.312
- A day.

00:48:18.312 --> 00:48:18.979
- A day.
- A day.

00:48:19.354 --> 00:48:21.565
And then it ended up
turning into 30 days.

00:48:21.565 --> 00:48:23.483
And we've been here for 30 days.

00:48:23.483 --> 00:48:25.110
And then tomorrow will be 31 days

00:48:25.569 --> 00:48:27.446
and then we'll be going
home more than likely.

00:48:29.364 --> 00:48:31.491
All right. I'll just put two
pieces down for you.

00:48:33.285 --> 00:48:34.306
Hold on.

00:48:35.746 --> 00:48:38.165
This has been my sixth time maybe?

00:48:39.958 --> 00:48:41.168
Yeah.

00:48:43.629 --> 00:48:45.547
I was in foster care
whenever I was real young

00:48:45.547 --> 00:48:47.549
with my cousin John-John
and my sister Destiny.

00:48:48.842 --> 00:48:50.594
Then I went again by myself

00:48:50.594 --> 00:48:52.721
and then again with my sister.

00:48:58.143 --> 00:48:59.227
So that's seven.

00:48:59.937 --> 00:49:00.941
For me.

00:49:01.563 --> 00:49:02.940
You don't know what a pawn is, do you?

00:49:41.687 --> 00:49:42.938
I was thinkin’ the whole time

00:49:42.938 --> 00:49:44.773
that we weren't gonna be going home.

00:49:45.273 --> 00:49:47.651
So whenever I got the news and
they came and picked me up,

00:49:47.651 --> 00:49:48.819
I was really happy. Like,

00:49:49.277 --> 00:49:52.197
I was shaking with excitement.

00:49:55.075 --> 00:49:56.076
Hey Mom.

00:49:57.119 --> 00:49:59.413
Hey baby boy, what’re you doin?

00:50:00.038 --> 00:50:01.046
Not much.

00:50:02.165 --> 00:50:02.874
- Waitin’ on her.

00:50:02.874 --> 00:50:05.252
- Waitin’ on her.
- Oh, I can’t wait until I see you though.

00:50:05.252 --> 00:50:06.378
- Where are you right now?

00:50:06.378 --> 00:50:07.337
- Where are you right now?
- Headed there.

00:50:07.337 --> 00:50:09.339
We’ll be there in, not long.

00:50:09.589 --> 00:50:10.590
All right.

00:50:10.966 --> 00:50:12.426
All right, I love you baby.

00:50:12.426 --> 00:50:13.828
- I love you.

00:50:13.830 --> 00:50:15.721
- Stay up and wait on Mommy,
I’ll be there real soon.

00:50:15.721 --> 00:50:16.728
All right I will.

00:50:18.557 --> 00:50:19.558
You too.

00:50:46.043 --> 00:50:47.294
I love you.

00:50:47.753 --> 00:50:49.504
Love you. Love you.

00:50:50.464 --> 00:50:51.715
Love you.

00:50:52.966 --> 00:50:55.886
Oh, I love you so much, honey.
I’m so glad.

00:50:57.012 --> 00:50:58.597
Mommy needed this so bad.

00:50:58.805 --> 00:51:00.891
Just look at my cast.

00:51:02.017 --> 00:51:03.894
Love you. Love you. Love you.

00:51:05.854 --> 00:51:06.938
Shyla,

00:51:07.230 --> 00:51:08.356
look at Mommy.

00:51:08.899 --> 00:51:10.400
Never ever again.

00:51:11.026 --> 00:51:12.033
Never!

00:51:12.152 --> 00:51:13.361
I'm sorry.

00:51:13.904 --> 00:51:14.988
Calm down, Mom.

00:51:16.031 --> 00:51:17.115
It's not your fault.

00:51:17.574 --> 00:51:18.658
- Yeah it is.

00:51:18.660 --> 00:51:20.660
- Nuh-uh, because it
was all accusations

00:51:20.660 --> 00:51:22.204
that were proven to be wrong.

00:51:22.829 --> 00:51:24.206
I'm so sorry.

00:51:24.664 --> 00:51:26.458
(Dominic)
It’s all right, Mom.

00:51:27.417 --> 00:51:28.502
Never again.

00:51:30.378 --> 00:51:32.506
- Is that Dad?
- Hope you guys can forgive me.

00:51:32.506 --> 00:51:33.548
Is Dad here?

00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:34.341
- Yep.

00:51:34.341 --> 00:51:35.425
- Yep.
- I can’t.

00:51:36.802 --> 00:51:38.553
You forgive Mommy, baby?

00:51:39.763 --> 00:51:40.764
I'll fight you.

00:51:41.098 --> 00:51:41.765
- I'll fight you first.

00:51:41.765 --> 00:51:42.974
- I'll fight you first.
- With hugs and kisses.

00:51:43.308 --> 00:51:44.309
Oh okay.

00:51:46.228 --> 00:51:46.978
- I missed you, Mom.

00:51:46.978 --> 00:51:48.897
- I missed you, Mom.
- I missed you, Baby.

00:51:49.940 --> 00:51:52.776
“Sleeping so peaceful”

00:51:52.984 --> 00:51:55.320
“in my bed last night,”

00:51:56.071 --> 00:52:00.158
“the spirit of God filled the room.”

00:52:01.576 --> 00:52:04.955
“In the wee hours of the morning,”

00:52:05.413 --> 00:52:09.251
“He woke me up and He asked me”

00:52:09.251 --> 00:52:12.671
“to pray for you.”

00:52:14.089 --> 00:52:16.758
“The children of God”

00:52:17.384 --> 00:52:19.845
“from time to time”

00:52:20.428 --> 00:52:24.432
“wrestle with pain and despair.”

00:52:24.432 --> 00:52:25.684
Amen.

00:52:26.143 --> 00:52:29.396
“But in all situations”

00:52:29.729 --> 00:52:33.942
“we’re lifted up, we're encouraged”

00:52:34.109 --> 00:52:37.279
“and strengthened by prayer.”

00:52:38.238 --> 00:52:41.741
“So the next time you see me”

00:52:42.117 --> 00:52:44.494
“ facing a trial,”

00:52:45.120 --> 00:52:48.957
“there's one thing you could do.”

00:52:50.709 --> 00:52:53.587
“it would mean so much”

00:52:53.920 --> 00:52:56.965
“if you'd call and say”

00:52:56.965 --> 00:53:01.970
“my darling, I'm a prayin’ for you.”

00:53:03.680 --> 00:53:09.060
“I pray for you in your troubles.”

00:53:09.644 --> 00:53:15.275
“To Jesus I call your name”

00:53:15.650 --> 00:53:19.112
“Oh I really believe”

00:53:19.112 --> 00:53:23.533
“that you will receive your answer.”

00:53:23.533 --> 00:53:28.538
“For I pray for you.”

00:53:44.346 --> 00:53:47.098
Hey, babe, I'm done smokin’.
Let’s get this Bible read

00:53:47.098 --> 00:53:49.517
and get started,
so we can get our day started.

00:53:53.521 --> 00:53:54.606
You hear me?

00:53:55.065 --> 00:53:56.983
(Paula)
Yes, J.P. I hear you!

00:53:56.983 --> 00:53:58.652
Then we'll get dressed and um,

00:54:01.238 --> 00:54:03.406
go take some donuts to grandpa.

00:54:09.037 --> 00:54:11.006
I'm gonna go to the cemetery.
It won't take me too long.

00:54:11.006 --> 00:54:11.957
I just wanna go up and

00:54:11.957 --> 00:54:13.333
put them flowers up there and,

00:54:13.625 --> 00:54:14.630
um,

00:54:14.751 --> 00:54:15.835
say hi.

00:54:17.504 --> 00:54:19.839
Whatever you say, chief.

00:54:20.215 --> 00:54:21.633
You, you,

00:54:23.218 --> 00:54:25.971
you got everything under
control on your side.

00:54:25.971 --> 00:54:27.555
Well ten minutes ago I was

00:54:28.139 --> 00:54:29.140
a low life.

00:54:29.140 --> 00:54:30.767
You’re still a prick. Yeah.

00:54:30.767 --> 00:54:31.893
And using you.

00:54:32.018 --> 00:54:33.645
Yeah, you’re still a prick.

00:54:36.690 --> 00:54:39.109
You use me. You keep using me.

00:54:39.567 --> 00:54:40.902
I'm not tryin’ to.

00:54:41.653 --> 00:54:44.155
I’ve got all this woodwork to paint.

00:54:44.447 --> 00:54:46.408
Got all that trimmin’ to do.

00:54:46.408 --> 00:54:47.742
You can't do that trimmin’.

00:54:47.861 --> 00:54:48.868
Yeah I will.

00:54:48.868 --> 00:54:49.869
No.

00:54:50.199 --> 00:54:51.204
Watch me.

00:54:51.204 --> 00:54:52.539
Don't Grandpa, let me do it.

00:54:52.539 --> 00:54:54.165
You can't climb up there man.

00:54:54.791 --> 00:54:56.793
Don't climb, please
don't climb up there.

00:54:57.085 --> 00:54:58.044
I'm beggin’ you.

00:54:58.044 --> 00:55:00.880
I'll come straight back here
and do the top.

00:55:01.499 --> 00:55:02.507
You hear me?

00:55:02.507 --> 00:55:05.176
Please don't climb up there,
Grandpa, with nobody here.

00:55:06.303 --> 00:55:08.054
Gimme 45 minutes, I'll be back.

00:55:09.556 --> 00:55:10.557
I love you.

00:55:11.558 --> 00:55:12.767
You hear me?

00:55:13.310 --> 00:55:14.311
I love you.

00:55:14.477 --> 00:55:15.186
Okay.

00:55:15.186 --> 00:55:17.605
Tell me what you used to tell me.
I don't love nobody.

00:55:18.148 --> 00:55:19.524
You don’t.

00:55:19.524 --> 00:55:21.526
You love yourself.

00:55:22.639 --> 00:55:23.653
No.

00:55:23.653 --> 00:55:25.822
You hate me. You hate your grandma.

00:55:25.822 --> 00:55:26.990
You're crazy.

00:55:28.575 --> 00:55:30.118
You really believe that in your heart?

00:55:30.118 --> 00:55:31.286
Oh yeah.

00:55:31.870 --> 00:55:34.080
Yeah, I’m as serious as a heart attack.

00:55:34.456 --> 00:55:35.463
Yeah.

00:55:36.291 --> 00:55:37.500
You're wrong, Grandpa.

00:55:37.834 --> 00:55:38.918
You're wrong, buddy.

00:55:40.086 --> 00:55:41.296
He's silly.

00:56:22.337 --> 00:56:23.963
It is definitely a change though.

00:56:24.756 --> 00:56:25.840
Going from

00:56:26.174 --> 00:56:27.926
livin’ with Grandma and them

00:56:27.926 --> 00:56:28.927
to,

00:56:29.177 --> 00:56:30.678
you know what I mean,
havin’ your own place.

00:56:31.999 --> 00:56:35.350
It feels a lot better though
when you're doin’ good

00:56:35.350 --> 00:56:36.684
but when you're doin’ bad and

00:56:37.852 --> 00:56:40.188
not payin’ your bills,
you know what I mean?

00:56:41.523 --> 00:56:43.024
It's a struggle. I don't have any,

00:56:43.024 --> 00:56:44.984
I mean it's hard, a lot
harder livin’ down here

00:56:44.984 --> 00:56:46.194
'cause we don't have
a ride nowhere hardly.

00:56:46.194 --> 00:56:47.109
You know what I mean?

00:56:47.112 --> 00:56:49.155
It's a struggle to get a ride.

00:57:32.073 --> 00:57:34.909
You did not wanna live at
Grandma's no more, did ya?

00:57:39.706 --> 00:57:42.333
You wanna wait until after dinner
to do our dose, baby?

00:58:42.936 --> 00:58:44.103
We got fire!

00:58:45.688 --> 00:58:46.981
- You drop outta school?

00:58:46.981 --> 00:58:47.857
- You drop outta school?
- No, I graduated.

00:58:47.857 --> 00:58:49.859
Oh that's right, you said
you’re going to college.

00:58:50.527 --> 00:58:51.694
I’m gonna...

00:58:52.278 --> 00:58:53.279
um,

00:58:54.656 --> 00:58:56.491
She's trying to get
back to her school.

00:58:57.367 --> 00:58:58.576
It’s hard.

00:58:59.118 --> 00:59:00.703
I know it's hard, but

00:59:00.954 --> 00:59:02.872
you got me to talk to your problems.

00:59:04.249 --> 00:59:05.708
Can't you just do it online?

00:59:06.084 --> 00:59:07.460
You can do it online.

00:59:07.460 --> 00:59:10.213
But I'd rather be in public.

00:59:10.213 --> 00:59:12.131
But public school is
more better than online

00:59:12.131 --> 00:59:13.341
because they can actually

00:59:13.341 --> 00:59:15.927
teach you instead of
being on the computer.

00:59:19.681 --> 00:59:21.182
The reason I wanted to
graduate is 'cause

00:59:21.182 --> 00:59:23.184
my parents and everybody
said that I wouldn't make it.

00:59:23.351 --> 00:59:25.186
I wouldn't do it. I'd be a dropout.

00:59:25.895 --> 00:59:27.897
So I used everybody's that

00:59:28.356 --> 00:59:30.108
proves, tells me that I won't do it.

00:59:30.483 --> 00:59:31.192
- Proving ‘em wrong?

00:59:31.192 --> 00:59:32.902
- Proving ‘em wrong?
- I use that as the

00:59:32.902 --> 00:59:35.238
self-esteem to push myself to do it.

00:59:36.090 --> 00:59:39.367
Oh, I just do whatever I feel like.

00:59:50.920 --> 00:59:52.922
Hey, hey. Let her up.

00:59:53.673 --> 00:59:55.008
I gotta give her a weapon.

00:59:56.259 --> 00:59:57.677
- Get up, Shyla.
- Yeah, Curtis.

00:59:57.677 --> 00:59:58.886
You're her coach.

00:59:58.886 --> 01:00:01.306
All right. I'm gonna put it into
your back since it's a sharp,

01:00:01.889 --> 01:00:03.057
like, fake weapon.

01:00:05.893 --> 01:00:07.312
It's pretty cold out–

01:00:07.478 --> 01:00:08.730
hot out today.

01:00:10.398 --> 01:00:11.941
It's ice!

01:00:21.784 --> 01:00:22.994
Did you put ice?

01:00:22.994 --> 01:00:24.245
In my pants!

01:00:26.039 --> 01:00:26.914
Put it,

01:00:26.914 --> 01:00:28.124
put it in her shirt.

01:00:28.833 --> 01:00:30.251
It’s still in her shirt.

01:00:30.668 --> 01:00:32.670
(Euva)
Guys, go outside please.

01:00:35.965 --> 01:00:38.176
I will, Mom. I will go outside.

01:01:06.954 --> 01:01:08.164
You didn't get it out yet?

01:01:10.500 --> 01:01:12.210
No, it ain’t. It's right here.

01:01:15.338 --> 01:01:16.255
It's right here.

01:01:16.547 --> 01:01:17.006
- It'll go all the way down if you want it to.

01:01:17.006 --> 01:01:19.175
- It'll go all the way down if you want it to.
- Curtis, I’m not stupid.

01:01:53.668 --> 01:01:55.253
I’m not scared of you!

01:02:11.853 --> 01:02:14.063
Quit spraying me
with that stupid thing.

01:03:49.909 --> 01:03:51.327
No.

01:03:52.245 --> 01:03:53.579
(Preacher)
Listen!

01:03:53.579 --> 01:03:57.166
(Preacher) We're looking for the cause
of all the things that are going on,

01:03:57.166 --> 01:03:59.669
(Preacher)
all the cancers and all the things.

01:03:59.669 --> 01:04:02.630
We live in a corrupt world.

01:04:03.047 --> 01:04:04.882
It's been corrupted by sin.

01:04:05.091 --> 01:04:07.802
It's been corrupted and,
and it's under the curse.

01:04:08.386 --> 01:04:11.639
But not only is man looking
for the redemption,

01:04:11.639 --> 01:04:14.475
but the earth is waiting
on the redemption.

01:04:15.643 --> 01:04:18.771
This earth will be purged
from the curse of sin.

01:04:19.001 --> 01:04:19.981
He says, “For we know”

01:04:19.981 --> 01:04:21.649
–in verse 22, Romans 8:22–

01:04:21.649 --> 01:04:24.068
“For we know that the
whole creation groaneth

01:04:24.402 --> 01:04:27.196
and travaileth in pain
together until now.”

01:04:28.114 --> 01:04:31.576
(Preacher) He's about to finish
the job that He started.

01:04:34.871 --> 01:04:37.498
(J.P.) I joke about it
sometimes and I tell Paula,

01:04:38.249 --> 01:04:40.251
at least if I die now
I’ll have a funeral,

01:04:40.251 --> 01:04:42.253
my grandparents will bury me.

01:04:45.506 --> 01:04:47.675
If I die here in a couple
years after they pass,

01:04:49.218 --> 01:04:51.971
I'll probably just get thrown
in the river or somethin’.

01:05:00.354 --> 01:05:03.816
I would love nothing more than to
make my grandparents proud.

01:05:05.443 --> 01:05:06.694
Thank you, sweetheart.

01:05:29.842 --> 01:05:32.428
Don't run from me because
you're just so beautiful.

01:05:32.428 --> 01:05:34.430
You don't even want to
run from me, right?

01:05:35.348 --> 01:05:37.683
I cannot believe that
you are so cute.

01:05:37.683 --> 01:05:39.185
You’re just like, my favorite.

01:05:48.861 --> 01:05:50.655
You don't know how to make nothing.

01:05:51.197 --> 01:05:52.657
Man, you are a kid

01:05:52.657 --> 01:05:54.992
you don't even know how
to make mac and cheese.

01:05:56.535 --> 01:05:58.079
Stop being a butthead.

01:05:58.412 --> 01:05:59.914
Then stop acting like
you know everything

01:06:00.247 --> 01:06:02.249
'cause I know everything. Not you.

01:06:09.131 --> 01:06:11.676
One, two,

01:06:11.676 --> 01:06:15.805
three, four, five,

01:06:15.805 --> 01:06:19.308
six, seven, eight,

01:06:19.308 --> 01:06:22.853
nine, ten, eleven.

01:06:34.407 --> 01:06:35.783
I guess it's like,

01:06:35.783 --> 01:06:38.536
I got expelled from school because of

01:06:38.828 --> 01:06:39.829
a knife

01:06:40.246 --> 01:06:42.832
that they said that I
brought to the game,

01:06:42.832 --> 01:06:46.002
and I never had a knife whenever
they found me or before then

01:06:46.585 --> 01:06:48.504
with any proof. So I don’t,

01:06:48.504 --> 01:06:49.505
I don't know.

01:06:50.172 --> 01:06:51.799
I don't know what
they’re talkin’ about.

01:06:53.092 --> 01:06:55.928
I got in trouble simply
because I was there.

01:06:56.971 --> 01:06:59.015
I got in trouble 'cause of my name.

01:07:02.768 --> 01:07:04.770
Yeah, I mean,

01:07:04.770 --> 01:07:07.606
I don't want to get
expelled, obviously, but like

01:07:07.606 --> 01:07:08.691
it's too late for that.

01:07:09.567 --> 01:07:11.068
I don't want to get

01:07:11.819 --> 01:07:12.862
failed,

01:07:12.862 --> 01:07:15.740
but it's probably too late for that.

01:07:20.161 --> 01:07:22.079
I wish I remember when
my court date was.

01:07:22.079 --> 01:07:23.956
That's good, I need to know that.

01:07:29.628 --> 01:07:30.629
Three,

01:07:31.672 --> 01:07:32.672
four,

01:07:33.674 --> 01:07:34.675
five.

01:07:35.009 --> 01:07:37.553
Mom look, three, four, five.

01:07:37.553 --> 01:07:38.637
Mm-hmm.

01:07:39.513 --> 01:07:41.515
Now I'm on...

01:07:41.515 --> 01:07:42.683
months.

01:07:43.017 --> 01:07:44.101
Mm-hmm.

01:07:45.269 --> 01:07:46.562
Are you done with homework?

01:07:46.562 --> 01:07:47.521
Um, yes.

01:07:47.521 --> 01:07:49.815
I just have to see this box.

01:07:51.025 --> 01:07:52.318
Good job.

01:08:15.508 --> 01:08:17.134
(Cheryl)
Hello?

01:08:19.470 --> 01:08:21.889
(Responder) Meigs County 9-1-1.
What's your emergency?

01:08:22.348 --> 01:08:24.642
(Cheryl)
Uh, my nephew…

01:08:25.601 --> 01:08:27.061
(Cheryl)
My mom next door,

01:08:27.061 --> 01:08:28.187
(Cheryl)
she needs help.

01:08:28.187 --> 01:08:30.397
(Cheryl)
She thinks he died.

01:08:30.397 --> 01:08:32.399
(Responder)
Okay. Ho- Hold on.

01:08:33.484 --> 01:08:34.985
(Responder)
What’s your name?

01:08:34.985 --> 01:08:37.238
(Cheryl)
My name’s Cheryl Stumbo.

01:08:37.696 --> 01:08:39.990
(Cheryl)
Oh God.

01:08:41.784 --> 01:08:43.452
(Cheryl)
Please hurry up.

01:08:43.994 --> 01:08:45.538
(Cheryl)
Come on!

01:08:45.913 --> 01:08:48.541
(Responder) Does he have any
health issues that you know of?

01:08:48.541 --> 01:08:50.292
(Cheryl)
They think he overdosed.

01:08:50.292 --> 01:08:52.920
(Responder)
Possibly overdosed. Okay.

01:08:54.296 --> 01:08:57.258
(Responder) Hold on just a second.
I'm gonna update my squads, okay?

01:08:57.258 --> 01:08:58.717
(Cheryl)
Okay.

01:09:03.848 --> 01:09:05.850
(Cheryl)
Oh, my God.

01:11:07.763 --> 01:11:10.057
(Donald)
I miss him. I really do.

01:11:12.935 --> 01:11:14.144
(Donald)
I went up to the hospital

01:11:14.144 --> 01:11:15.980
and he was just layin’ on the table

01:11:15.980 --> 01:11:17.648
and he wasn't this wide.

01:11:17.648 --> 01:11:19.066
You know, big J.P. used to be?

01:11:19.066 --> 01:11:21.068
He wasn't 160 pounds.

01:11:22.820 --> 01:11:24.071
I couldn't believe it.

01:11:24.071 --> 01:11:26.073
I grabbed him and kissed him.

01:11:27.574 --> 01:11:28.534
I come back,

01:11:28.534 --> 01:11:30.536
Grandpa's sittin’ at
the table like this.

01:11:31.120 --> 01:11:33.122
He's cryin’. I've never
seen my grandpa–

01:11:33.122 --> 01:11:35.165
I seen him cry one time
talkin’ about war stories.

01:11:36.375 --> 01:11:39.044
He said, “Well,” he said,
“My buddy's gone.”

01:11:43.549 --> 01:11:46.719
J.P. died in January.
Grandma died in June.

01:11:46.719 --> 01:11:49.138
Then Grandpa just died.

01:12:09.199 --> 01:12:11.201
J.P. was a great nephew

01:12:12.953 --> 01:12:14.204
I loved the boy.

01:12:17.124 --> 01:12:19.251
He just went downhill.

01:12:56.246 --> 01:12:57.998
I love him so much.

01:12:57.998 --> 01:12:59.625
My buddy.

01:13:00.000 --> 01:13:02.169
You’re my buddy boy, ain’t ya baby.

01:13:04.296 --> 01:13:05.923
Talk to your daughter here, Euva.

01:13:07.383 --> 01:13:08.717
(Euva)
About what?

01:13:08.717 --> 01:13:10.552
About not havin’ no more kids.

01:13:12.471 --> 01:13:14.181
Have to take you and have you fixed.

01:13:14.341 --> 01:13:15.224
No.

01:13:15.224 --> 01:13:16.225
Yeah.

01:13:16.767 --> 01:13:17.935
I want to.

01:13:19.144 --> 01:13:21.897
I love you baby boy. Love you so much.

01:13:49.550 --> 01:13:51.135
I will come up and see you.

01:13:51.135 --> 01:13:52.302
Yeah, when?

01:13:52.302 --> 01:13:53.011
- Um. When summer gets here.

01:13:53.011 --> 01:13:54.471
- Um. When summer gets here.
- If you get that hair out of your face buddy

01:13:54.471 --> 01:13:56.306
your face wouldn’t
break out like that, I’m tellin’ you.

01:13:56.306 --> 01:13:57.015
But look, it's also my–

01:13:57.015 --> 01:13:58.100
- If you get your hair away from there.

01:13:58.100 --> 01:14:01.270
- If you get your hair away from there.
- But if I also would have like, a shaved face

01:14:01.270 --> 01:14:03.105
Well then you how to use a razor?

01:14:03.105 --> 01:14:03.564
- I do, but...

01:14:03.564 --> 01:14:04.606
- I do, but...
- Well, there you go.

01:14:04.606 --> 01:14:08.777
(Euva) I just now realized he had
his damn ear pierced yesterday.

01:14:08.777 --> 01:14:09.528
- You knew didn't you?

01:14:09.528 --> 01:14:10.988
- You knew didn't you?
- No, I didn’t know!

01:14:10.988 --> 01:14:12.531
Curtis, I swear to God buddy.

01:14:12.531 --> 01:14:14.074
That's the right ear.
You know what that means?

01:14:14.074 --> 01:14:14.950
What?

01:14:14.950 --> 01:14:15.701
No it doesn't.

01:14:15.701 --> 01:14:16.201
- It does too!

01:14:16.201 --> 01:14:17.369
- It does too!
- I don't care what you say.

01:14:17.369 --> 01:14:19.913
I know you don't, but you shouldn’t
got the right ear pierced.

01:14:19.913 --> 01:14:20.873
I don't care.

01:14:20.873 --> 01:14:22.166
- Show me in the Bible. 'Cause–

01:14:22.166 --> 01:14:24.918
- Show me in the Bible. 'Cause–
- It ain't in the Bible, Curtis. Come on now!

01:14:33.135 --> 01:14:35.387
She don't smoke too much.
She really don't.

01:14:35.387 --> 01:14:37.347
She'll smoke it every now and again

01:14:37.347 --> 01:14:39.766
or she'll just hit it once or twice.
You know what I mean?

01:14:39.766 --> 01:14:41.852
I think we should get Grandma edibles.

01:14:41.852 --> 01:14:42.728
- Where? With us?

01:14:42.728 --> 01:14:43.437
- Where? With us?
- Uh-huh.

01:14:43.437 --> 01:14:45.063
Shit. Yeah.

01:14:45.522 --> 01:14:46.857
It don't ever help though.

01:14:46.857 --> 01:14:48.525
Just like smokin’ weed. It don't help.

01:14:49.026 --> 01:14:50.027
Just masks it.

01:14:50.027 --> 01:14:51.695
That problem’s just right there.
When you’re...

01:14:51.695 --> 01:14:53.071
You know what I mean?

01:14:53.614 --> 01:14:56.492
That's why I deal with my
problems whenever I am high.

01:14:56.909 --> 01:14:59.828
Whenever I'm sober I don't
really think about 'em.

01:15:02.623 --> 01:15:05.375
I like to deal with it
when I can instead of

01:15:05.375 --> 01:15:07.001
- dealing with it whenever it's
actually going to affect me.

01:15:07.003 --> 01:15:08.795
- So you'd rather deal with it
when you're high then?

01:15:08.795 --> 01:15:10.964
Yeah, I like to deal with it
whenever I'm able to.

01:15:10.964 --> 01:15:12.925
Whenever I'm high it's like,
even if it's bad–

01:15:12.925 --> 01:15:13.884
It’s never gonna help you.

01:15:13.884 --> 01:15:17.095
If that's the case,
you better quit smoking then.

01:15:57.761 --> 01:15:59.638
Don't get my ear.

01:15:59.699 --> 01:16:00.556
What?

01:16:00.556 --> 01:16:01.640
My ear and my face!

01:16:11.149 --> 01:16:12.985
I gotta graduate.

01:16:13.902 --> 01:16:16.488
Told my grandpa I would. Promised him.

01:16:17.531 --> 01:16:19.199
He asked me if I was gonna
graduate high school.

01:16:19.199 --> 01:16:20.450
I told him no.

01:16:20.450 --> 01:16:21.868
He’s like, “Yeah you are.” I was like

01:16:21.868 --> 01:16:23.036
“All right, fine I guess I am.”

01:16:23.036 --> 01:16:25.956
He’s like, “You are.
You promise me you will?”

01:16:25.956 --> 01:16:28.584
And I said, “Yeah Grandpa. I promise.”

01:17:00.657 --> 01:17:03.285
I wanna put “Happy Birthday Curtis.”

01:17:03.285 --> 01:17:04.953
“Happy 18th Birthday.”

01:17:05.329 --> 01:17:07.289
Everything look all right there?

01:17:07.289 --> 01:17:08.165
Sure does.

01:17:08.165 --> 01:17:10.709
All right. I'll bring it back out
the door here in just a moment.

01:17:10.709 --> 01:17:11.793
All righty.

01:17:12.127 --> 01:17:14.046
(singing)
“Happy Birthday to you.”

01:17:14.046 --> 01:17:16.381
You didn't even light the candles.

01:17:17.633 --> 01:17:18.957
- Blew them out first try.
You saw that?

01:17:18.959 --> 01:17:19.968
- Yeah, you got ‘em all out.

01:17:19.968 --> 01:17:21.887
Your wish’ll come true.

01:17:24.640 --> 01:17:26.892
Living is different everywhere.

01:17:28.226 --> 01:17:30.479
We might be doin’ some
stuff that you think's crazy.

01:17:30.562 --> 01:17:33.190
You might be doin’ some
stuff that we think is crazy.

01:17:34.316 --> 01:17:36.943
Our standards sometimes
aren't set by ourselves,

01:17:37.069 --> 01:17:39.863
sometimes they are set
by the world we live in,

01:17:39.863 --> 01:17:43.283
the economy that we have,
the money that we can make.

01:17:44.701 --> 01:17:46.286
Ohhh!

01:17:47.204 --> 01:17:48.413
Curtis, look at me though.

01:17:48.413 --> 01:17:49.414
I can't.

01:17:51.541 --> 01:17:54.169
It's like a self-fulfilling prophecy.

01:18:00.217 --> 01:18:02.844
Your brain is just so focused on it,

01:18:05.347 --> 01:18:08.183
and like, try telling your
brain not to do something,

01:18:08.183 --> 01:18:10.394
like, don't think of a cow.

01:18:11.395 --> 01:18:12.604
It doesn't work.

01:18:13.980 --> 01:18:16.191
I'm gonna be different
'cause I am different.

01:18:16.191 --> 01:18:18.151
I'm nothing like any of
my family members.

01:18:18.151 --> 01:18:20.070
I've taken their things from
their personality that

01:18:20.070 --> 01:18:21.405
I find that is good.

01:18:21.405 --> 01:18:22.781
You ass!

01:18:24.825 --> 01:18:27.536
It's selfish for me to try to say that

01:18:27.536 --> 01:18:29.371
they're bad people.

01:18:31.665 --> 01:18:35.669
They were just a person
just like me at one point.

01:18:39.005 --> 01:18:40.674
The life that they've lived
is probably what

01:18:40.674 --> 01:18:42.968
what made them make the
choices that they did.

01:19:04.906 --> 01:19:05.909
There’s hope.

01:19:06.658 --> 01:19:08.660
There’s hope for any of them, I think.

01:19:15.292 --> 01:19:18.462
Never thought I’d live
to be a great grandma.

01:19:23.175 --> 01:19:25.177
He’s a baby doll.

01:19:27.888 --> 01:19:30.140
I just hope to God
he lives a healthy life.

01:19:33.435 --> 01:19:34.811
I hope he does.