The Ninth Floor
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In 2004, an apartment overlooking Manhattan's Fifth Avenue housed some thirty young people living in a vortex of drug addiction and despair. Jessica Dimmock entered this world and explored how these addicts fight to get clean, sink deeper into addiction, go to jail, start families, and overall struggle to survive in their own way.
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Main credits
Dimmock, Jessica (filmmaker)
Dimmock, Jessica (photographer)
Cook, Diane (film producer)
Other credits
Photography and audio, Jessica Dimmock.
Distributor subjects
New York City, addiction, youth, parenting, health, psychology, sociology; Expository; WOKeywords
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Sometimes its scary,
like I think I\'m OD\'ing.
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There\'s many times where I\'ve done it,
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I\'ve shot and I\'m like,
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Wow this might be it.
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I think I\'ve caught myself
out of dying many times.
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I\'ve had my phone in my hand
getting ready to dial 911.
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What makes me go back?
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Oh, cause I convince myself I\'m not gonna
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go that far again, or whatever.
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I\'ll just do a little bit less.
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All I was thinking about was
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I wanna get high. I wanna get high.
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You know, I wanna get high.
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I guess the junkie life was what I wanted.
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I had really no other aspirations.
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I just never tried to do anything.
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The only thing I really wanted to do was,
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you know, get loaded,
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and sit around and do nothing.
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So that\'s what I did.
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What was it like the
first time I did heroin?
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I\'ll never forget it.
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My roommate\'s door was open a little crack
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and it was like in the movies or something.
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There was the candle and
the spoon over the candle.
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And I just did it.
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And I remember leaning back.
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And I was on a cloud.
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And there was not a worry in this world.
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It just relaxes you.
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Takes away any of the concern.
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No fears. No worries.
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It doesn\'t do that forever.
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After awhile you\'re just
doing it to stay straight,
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to stay normal.
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And you\'re not getting the
same effects anymore.
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And then that\'s why they
say you\'re chasing,
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the first hit.
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Cause then you\'re just doing it
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to try and get that same feeling
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that you got in the beginning.
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But you never really get that.
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You may get glimpses from time to time, but
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you never really get that.
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I was on 120 milligrams of methadone
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when she was conceived.
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By the time she was born I was on 50.
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And now I\'m completely off.
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I\'m not stupid. I don\'t think
anyone owes me anything.
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I know that everything I did
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I made my own choice about it.
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And that\'s what sucks real bad.
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You know, I got a daughter now
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that looks at me like I
am just the best thing.
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And so I just have to look at her
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and be like you have no idea.
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And it\'s just, it\'s scary to me, you know?
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I\'m 31 years old, and
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I have no education.
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I mean, I look at her and I
figure I\'ll do anything for her.
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Yeah. And I just, I just
you know, I pray that
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from now on I\'ll be able to pull
it together correctly, you know?
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I think I\'ve came a long way.
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But not nearly far enough.
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Not nearly far enough yet.
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And she\'ll just wake up
in the morning and like
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and she\'ll just give a big smile.
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And no matter in what
kind of mood you\'re in
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you can\'t be upset.
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They\'re just...
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just so perfect. You know? I mean...
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It makes you think about
life completely different.
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There\'s not any decision
I could ever make again
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without her being the top of the priority.
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Because you\'re just that good.
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You just got so much goodness in you.
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And it also lets you really see that
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human beings are inherently good.
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We learn bad.
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I mean, there\'s nothing bad
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in this little girl, I
mean, you know, she\'s just
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she\'s just nothing but good.
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Right?